back to school

here i am. about 5-6 years after i
dropped out of iowa state university,
i'm enrolled in school again. whew.

while it wasn't my greatest decision to
quit school, and while i couldn't admit that
i pretty much dropped out, i knew that i'd
always end up going back.

i believe i left school because yes, i wasn't
truthfully ready. college then, really kicked me in
my behind. i couldn't admit that then because
that wasn't how i saw it then. i was still a little kid.
i hadn't realized how childish i was that first year.

i'm trying now. i'm older now.

i'm studying at dmacc and i'm
going to try to transfer back out to isu.

part of me is saying that i'll fall right back
to where i was before. part of me is fighting to
get the years i missed back. part of me is
regretful of spending so much money on school
when chris and i are getting married this year.

part of me will give it all i've got even if i fail.
i'm trying for all a's and b's.
but a c won't upset me, i tried and that counts.