event of the month [february]

this months event was supposed to
be a justin timberlake concert. queue
the sad music because chris and i
didn't end up going. the concert was in
chicago over president's day weekend.
i couldn't attend because i started a new job.
i told chris to go without me, but he didn't want to.
oh well. [the concert was more for him than me, anyway.]

well, we ended up going to the
'largest craft show' at the iowa state fair.
it was on a whim. we both actually enjoyed
ourselves, it was nice because we didn't really
spend too much. we couldn't take pictures though
because no photography was allowed.

it was mostly home decor kind of things.
i picked up a dog collar and a
headband from sammy's booth.

future

my future is still very unclear.
no, i did not choose for it to be that
way. it kind of really just happened.

i'm slowly working towards getting to that
point... where you know and everything clicks
and it just works. it's a long journey,
that's for sure.

whoever said it wasn't easy wasn't lying.

i feel so guilty, because my fiance
chris, he has big dreams too.
and i feel like i'm holding him back
from the things he wants in life. :[
and it's really all my fault.

i'm doing the best that i can. i went back to
school, i'm still a temp... which sucks...
i want a real job already!

i feel stuck. i need guidance and answers.
i don't know. i'm lost.

is this normal for a 25 year old?

update 1.3

this post will just be a quick update
of what's currently going on.

i don't know if i have mentioned it
yet but i did start school again in january.

i start a new job tomorrow. eek!

our wedding is a little more than 7 months away.
i still have tons of stuff to buy and make for it.

project bling is now called frostbite.
[isn't that so cute!]

chris and i have a food tasting this week
for the wedding.

i don't know how i'm seriously going to
have time for anything. i get stressed
just thinking about it!

deep breaths!