learning [in more ways than one]

a few weeks ago i completed my first
semester back to school in about
six or seven years. yeah, yeah, i
know... finally. it took me long enough.

i was fresh out of high school and accepted into
isu the following summer, it all happened too fast.
i took a 'break' from school because
i didn't feel like i was really ready for it.
in actuality, i probably never will be.
but, i thought about things and said to
myself, 'get your sh!t together!'
i thought that maybe, just maybe, going this
past semester would make me change my mind.
nope. i still feel the same way i did the
first time around. i. don't. want. to. go.

i didn't do as well as i hoped i would. an
a, b, and c isn't bad, but i wanted more.
i expected more from myself. but at least i didn't fail.

it's bad but i already want to give up. part
of me wants to keep fighting but the other
part is telling me that's it's a waste of
money and time. school isn't hard or anything
i just don't have that same fight in me anymore.
it's so hard to explain. everything is always
so complicated it seems.

event of the month [april]

this idea for event of the month
was kind of spur of the moment. given
chris said there wasn't too much going
on in the month of april.

we went to a life action graphic novel
show that voice actors, sound effects,
and a crazy pianist were acting out
the slides of the comic book.

it was interesting to say the least. i
thought it was a bit confusing. chris thought
it was cool. of course!
i enjoyed the experience, but i wouldn't say
i would go see it again.