a thin line

i just completed summer semester
last friday and i had a terrifying
brush with failing. failing
was what got me into this position
in the first place and it really
threw me off and stressed me out.
i'm telling myself there are always
going to be these kinds of roadblocks
in life and in general.
i just have to move on and learn from it.
and that's what i'm going to try to do.

i was so close to just giving
up, but thankfully i did
pass the class, but there was
a thin line between passing and
failing. i think it's hitting
me so hard because i gave it
as much as i could have and it still
was just barely good enough.
i know it wasn't my all,
but with work and trying to
have a social life, i was
driving myself insane.

i have 1.5 days until fall
semester begins. i'm ready to
kick it's ass, but yet... i'm more
ready and willing to wave the
white flag. crazy though, if
i make it to the holidays, i'll
have finished my first 'redo'
year back at college! that's something
to keep me focused!