new beginning

i start my new job on 07 november 11.
it's a full-time job and i haven't held a full-time job before.
i feel so grown-up! :P
i forgot how it felt to be so
stressed, happy, anxious, and lots of everything!
i was very afraid to accept the job for many reasons, but i told myself that i was waiting for this chance.
and i've finally learned, after years and years, chances should be taken at every opportunity, even if i was scared to death!

it's very bittersweet considering i quit a job i worked at for 3 years and 8 months.
(one thing i have been dying to say is::
I'M SO HAPPY I'M OUT OF RETAIL!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!) :)
it feels like a weights been lifted off my shoulders.
don't get me wrong, i DID like my job.
thing is... there were moments where i loved it and moments where i swear i was going to walk out.
that job was such an emotional roller coaster.
i felt like i owed it to everyone to stay.
and that's how they made me feel.
it kind of messed with me physically and emotionally and changed who i was both in a good and bad way.
so i consider myself starting new and being so afraid, so anxious,
a not-so-bad situation after all. but maybe a new beginning to find the old me again.
the me who was nice and fun, sweet and kind... the me that i miss.