life before you

you mean so much to me, i'm just
terrible at expressing that kind of thing.
i always imagined myself as romantic.
guess i overestimated myself.

life wasn't the same when you walked in.
it really was like seeing colors for the
first time. breathing a crisp clean air.

i don't regret the life i've lived so far,
but i'm so much happier now than i was then.
it's hard to tell i know.
who knew relationships were such work?


i didn't date much when i was younger.
the only time i truly remember even liking
boys was during middle school. even then,
it wasn't serious.

i was never the pretty one in my group
of friends, ever. middle school or high school.
i'm not of great looks even on my own. just
average i would say. so it wasn't like dudes
were knocking on my door either.

dating to me was a serious thing from the
beginning. my parents stayed together. and by
the time i realized i did want someone, my
two older sisters were already in relationships.

as far-fetched as it sounds, i wanted
mr. right on the first try because my parents
and my sisters had that.

lucky me i did get it. you.
who would've thought that i would find someone
so unselfish in a relationship. so willing
to make me happy first.

i don't want the life i had before you.
i want now. i want forever.


'now you're here and everything's changing, and
suddenly life means so much. i can't wait to
wake up tomorrow, and find out this promise is
true. i will never have to go back to... the
day before you.'
-rascal flatts