2012 new year's resolutions

i can't believe another year has gone by.
time just keeps passing.
i mean just yesterday it was christmas! omg!

2011 was a bittersweet year for me, there were too many ups and downs, sadness, bad news and stress.
so i hope that 2012 will bring all things
positive in my life.
i'm going to start with a resolution list in no particular order:

1. keep working out and lose weight
2. keep a good paying full time job
3. do 2 things i never would
4. let go of stress and have fun
5. do not return to retail for a job
6. go back to school
7. pay off all my credit cards
8. save money, both chris and i together
9. buy a home or get an apartment
10. take better care of myself
11. be happy or find my happiness
12. spend all holidays with my boyfriend
13. go on 3 amazing vacations
14. volunteer somewhere

i'll probably add more to this list
but this is all i can think of in one sitting.
bring it on 2012!

just waiting...

i feel like something has been missing in my life.
i mean, i have a good job, an amazing boyfriend, a wonderful family, everything.
i do have a good job, but i want to have a job doing something i love,
especially with my artistic craft.
i do have an amazing, loving boyfriend,
but we're falling into a routine that couples do and it's not so amazing.
and i do have an amazing family, but we all are fighting for our dreams and butting heads in the process.
or maybe it's me wanting bigger and better.
but... there's something else.
something i'm waiting for.
i think it's excitement, something new. anything.
i always said i was an average girl with big city dreams.
i know i can reach any dream that i have.
i'm just afraid to fail.
i know i'm asking for a lot,
but i want to be selfish for once.
is it wrong to feel that way? i don't know.
i don't have a lot of money or time. i'm so over this average life that i just deal with because i have to.
all i do know is that
i'm ready to be swept off my feet.
i'm ready for surprise. for now i'm just waiting.

project bling #08

accessorize! accessorize!
here's another project that i worked on!
these are iphone cases that i put bling on.
i saw them online and youtube. i thought, 'i can probably do that, too.'
and yes, that is exactly what i damn well did!
here are some photos:

i bought the cases in bulk online
as well as all the rhinestones.
i used my fingers and tweezers to put the rhinestones on the cases.
and finally i used loctite to glue them on.

insanity

being 23 years old, going through many changes.
i can say that i've always fluctuated with my weight.
now i'm not complaining about my weight or anything.
it's just i can gain weight and lose weight a little too often.
i was pretty satisfied with the way i looked.
i think transitioning to a new job stressed me out and i gained a little again.
instead of crying like a little baby about it, i'll try and work it off.

i'm going to start the workout program insanity tomorrow.
it's like p90x but a bit more fast paced.
the program is 2 months long and i will report my progress in the middle and end of the program.
i've finished the workout before. but not consecutively.
so that's the goal. plus lose weight, again. :P
here are my statistics as of today, 04 december 11.

height - 4'11"
weight = 120lbs

bust = 34
mid-section = 33 1/2
hips/butt = 37

let's hope that 2 months from now all the numbers above will shrink really really low! :)
wish me luck!

so thankful

considering tomorrow is thanksgiving
and i've never really spoken up about what i'm thankful for...
i guess i can express that now.

i'm thankful for my family.
they're my heart and soul.
they're crazy, and i love it. it makes my life interesting.
and i have great stories to tell co-workers! :P
they're one reason why i can get up everyday and be happy.
i'm thankful for chris
he's my life. he's my everything. he's my chesapeake bays.
he brings out the best in me,
even when i don't believe in myself.
i'm thankful for my puppy, charlee.
she's really naughty sometimes, but her silliness and cute little face can make me smile even when i'm not in a great mood!
i'm thankful for my new job.
i have great co-workers that are so much fun.
i work in an environment that's relaxed. compared to my old job.

i'm so thankful for everyone who's touched my life, in a major way or in a small way.
i'm the kind of person who appreciates a smile.
a stranger opening a door for me. a friendly hello while walking pass someone.
a nice compliment about anything in general.

i'm just trying to say that
i'm thankful for the life i have, even though sometimes it gets hard or stressful there's always something to be grateful for. big or small.
there's always someone or something there as a sign that life isn't so bad.
tomorrow is a new day to be thankful for.

project bling #67

as everyone will soon learn...
i l♥ve everything with bling! it can be shiny or sparkling, too!
i just LOVE it all!

i also collect victoria's secret mini dogsand i decided to put two things i love together...
bling and mini dogs! here are some pictures for your viewing pleasure!

i officially finished the bling dog on 15 november 11!
in the pictures you can see
i used a toothpick as a tool to place my rhinestones on the dog.
it surprisingly was a wayyy better tool than tweezers!
i used 3mm rhinestones... they were sooo small, i almost lost my mind!
i used aleene's jewel it glue to stick those suckers on there.
works really well!
and the pictures are also in the order of my progress! come back again and check out more project blings!

far beyond a comfort zone

sorry to everyone since i haven't been around lately.
as some of you know,
i did start my new job last monday.
my full time job, that is! ha!
i've only worked for 4 days last week because of veteran's day and it still kicked my ass. :(
i got a pretty big reality check accepting this job that's for sure...

i'm still so very new that i don't know if i can say i like it or dislike it.
tomorrow is still a training day. it's at the main building where i won't even be working.
i'm anticipating see where i really work and what i really do for my job.
maybe after that i'll feel a lot less stress and anxiety and everything!

i have so many mixed emotions about this job
and it's seriously affecting me physically, emotionally, and mentally.
at my old job i was always on my feet and i was okay with that.
now i'm always sitting for 8 hours a day and i already had back problems, it's getting a lot worse now. :(
i'm very happy about being out of retail {thank goodness!}, but now i'm always stressed.
and my boyfriend and i are also trying to get used to such change
in our schedules and lives in general,
he seems to like it...
as for myself...
it isn't horrible but i don't think i love it too much... yet...
i'm also really tired after work now that i feel some of my hobbies are slipping away from me.
i knew the struggle to get somewhere in this not-so-fabulous life wasn't going to be easy.
but really?! come on! i wish i had some kind of warning or something!!
i'm so far beyond my comfort zone i
can't even sleep at night.
i hope everything will get better. i'm supposed to be going to my real workplace tuesday.
until then... i will pep talk myself to keep going.
to do this for us. for you chris. you work hard for me. it's time to do it for you.
i see a small sliver of light in the darkness. i'll keep running toward it. for you.

new beginning

i start my new job on 07 november 11.
it's a full-time job and i haven't held a full-time job before.
i feel so grown-up! :P
i forgot how it felt to be so
stressed, happy, anxious, and lots of everything!
i was very afraid to accept the job for many reasons, but i told myself that i was waiting for this chance.
and i've finally learned, after years and years, chances should be taken at every opportunity, even if i was scared to death!

it's very bittersweet considering i quit a job i worked at for 3 years and 8 months.
(one thing i have been dying to say is::
I'M SO HAPPY I'M OUT OF RETAIL!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!) :)
it feels like a weights been lifted off my shoulders.
don't get me wrong, i DID like my job.
thing is... there were moments where i loved it and moments where i swear i was going to walk out.
that job was such an emotional roller coaster.
i felt like i owed it to everyone to stay.
and that's how they made me feel.
it kind of messed with me physically and emotionally and changed who i was both in a good and bad way.
so i consider myself starting new and being so afraid, so anxious,
a not-so-bad situation after all. but maybe a new beginning to find the old me again.
the me who was nice and fun, sweet and kind... the me that i miss.

a first impression

this is officially my first blog entry.
a walk, a preview, a journey into my life.
where not only will i find the inner me, but YOU will meet the girl i have been fighting to find.

oh and by the way... i'm also new to blogger and have forgotten how to design one nicely, if anyone would like to help out i'm willing to listen! :)